The Little Things

6 Days…

I can’t really believe it myself.

Now I know it’s not at all a milestone birthday like 18 or 21 or 30 but I think that makes it all the more hard to accept.

I still feel like time is moving all too quickly for me to catch up and all too slow when I’m enjoying myself.

It feels like it was just yesterday that I was 17 and free of responsibility.

Maybe I’m just reading into it too much but still.

I haven’t even began planning for it yet because around the time that I was planning, my life got a little more complicated and one of my closest friends moved away.

I’m still processing through it all and it’s not easy. I thought it was be a cinch to keep reminding myself that they haven’t fallen off the face of the planet and that I’ll see them again but the mind isn’t dumb.

It knows what’s missing.

And it won’t let you forget it.

I recently began keeping a journal after years of trying and failing but I have abandoned the normal structure of an entry and just began writing for me. Not for anyone else. Just me.

And it works.

It’s helping me open up to myself and be brutally honest.

I’m never actually going speak those words to any living soul so I shouldn’t have to worry about its content. It is for mine and God’s eyes alone and he won’t judge.

I’m still waiting for the catharsis an entry is supposed to bring but I’m sure it will come around sooner or later.

It just has to get through the hardened nooks and crannies of my heart and help me make those emotional connections to myself that I have been working through.

Dear Lord, thank you so much for everything you have given me. Life. Love. Friends. Family. I know I take them for granted but help me to see the value in it all. You alone are my consul. You love me despite me. Help me to love You more…

Yay!

So lots have been happening.

Let me explain.

First let me start with what happened Sunday then work all the way to today.

Sunday was the continuation of a series that we’re doing at Journey called “JUMP”. It’s about faith verses fear and let me tell you, it really got my head rolling lol

So then on Wednesday, I met with my small group who I haven’t seen in AGES! And we were going back to Sunday and discussing Faith vs. Fear on a more personal level.

Now a lot of people know that I was struggling with making a decision about college and from the discussion, I went straight home and applied at Berklee College of Music in Boston.

Didn’t even think twice about it.

And now I know why it took me so long! I was to busy thinking twice about it instead of jumping feet first into what felt was right. Now this has opened up a whole new future for me! If all goes well I could be moving to Boston by September! I still have to go through the audition and interview process but things are rolling and I am so excited! I’m finally letting God take the reins and lead me where ever he wants.

And the funny thing about all this is that I told my parents a long time ago that I would never go into music because that was what everyone would expect me to do! I didn’t want to be predictable. But here I am heading feet first into music and I love it. I’m becoming my own person through my music and being unpredictable (in a good way) at the same time!

I’ll keep everyone updated on the progress!!I should hear back about the day and location of my audition soon!

Just keep praying!

Steven T. Sharpe

What was the happiest moment in your life?

Well it wasn’t just a moment. It was my vacation with my family this past summer :) best trip ever!

Ask me anything

GAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!

I have neglected my tumblr!

I am saddend :(

BUT! I’m here now to update the 3 people that read this lol

Anyways, life has been pretty awesome as of late! I’ve been hanging out with a new addition to my group of friends and it’s so funny watching everyone fall all over her lol

It’s like she’s the shiny new toy in the playpen and all the kids want her.

It makes me happy that I’m not a girl :P

I’m also MOVING! Tomorrow actually and I’m finally getting my own room after nearly a decade and a half sharing a room. I’m so happy yet so sad that I’m not getting the 3rd floor to myself :(

Life at the cromb has been interesting. I mean I love my job but I’m always the one who is on time and having to wait for the late managers. I haaaaaaate people wasting my time. And the cromb doesn’t pay me as much as I thought. So I’m going to give them until February and then I’m going to apply to Express. I reeeeeally like that store and I’ll finally have work experience!

Okay so I’m going to sleep soon. I’m listening to Demetri Martin who is freaking hilarious! I love him :) Okay for real this time, NIGHT!!!!! :)

So in case you haven’t been keeping up with my post :ahem: shame on you :ahem: I just recently bought Green by Ted Dekker. Friday to be exactly.

I think around Tuesday I finished the book and was relatively pleased with the Beginning and the End of the series.

It started off a bit slow and I could tell that he was simply building the story but it was so out of Ted Dekker character to not have some “ooo“‘s and “ahh“‘s and “omg!“‘s lol I caught myself a couple times reading too much into the story just so I wouldn’t stop reading it.

Anyways, it finally picked up…and didn’t stop! I was on the edge of my bed and stressing about these characters that are completely fictional! haha

By the end of the book I was pretty impressed with the transition from :muffle: :muffle: :muffle: to how Black started. It’s really quite cool and you don’t really realize it until you’re halfway down the page and you’re like “whoa. wait. what?”:)

My only sadness about this book is that it was the end of the series but I do love all the golden nuggets he hid in the book for die-hard readers who read the Lost Books series (which I’ve only read a couple) and the hints to his latest projects about vampires :)

SIDEBAR: Why is everyone now writing about vampires since Twilight? I mean no one really heard about vamps before Twilight and now vamps are pretty much citizens lol but I’m okay with this!

Long review short: Love Ted Dekker. Green is awesome. Go and buy it.

I give it a 4 3/4 thumbs up!

Now that’s an awkward thumb! hahaha

Later!!!

Soooo today is PAYDAY!!!

I got my first paycheck today. Like ever. I’ve never worked a day in my life.

Yes. I’m spoiled just a bit.

But I like working! Btw in case you were wondering, I work at Abercrombie. Not to be confused with Abercrombie & Fitch which has half naked people hanging on the walls…

Anyways! I left work & immediately went up to Barnes & Noble even though my mother was waiting outside to take ma home and bought Green by Ted Dekker. Who btw is amazing :)

Look him up.

Seriously.

And I doubt I will buy a lot because I hate spending money unless it’s something I really really want.

Like coffee.

SIDEBAR: Oh did you know Caribou in Triangle gives mall employee discounts??? I had no idea until today.

Even with clothes. I love clothes but I have to really be desperate to get myself to go out and buy clothes. It’s sad really.

Okay! That’s about it. I’m done. I need to do some laundry, get some practicing in, watch the U.S. Open…

SIDEBAR: I’m reeeeally getting into tennis! Ever since that one fateful Saturday when I was bored and turned to Wimbledon I’ve been addicted. It’s second only to Sudoku on my addiction list.

…get some writing done, eat…you know. Little things like that. :sarcasm alert:

I’m going to post a review of Green soon and start posting some pictures ‘cause I need some variety :)

Lata!